salvation is here...
Sunday, August 19, 2007
Shine like stars
Look at d world we live today,
look at d hurting everywhere,
let us see mercy n ur grace,
overflowed in every place,
Let us be one woth You today,
and let your glory fall..
we will shine,
shine like stars above,
Shining in Your light,
guided by Your love,
let Your fire burn in us,
burning like the d sun,
as we glorified,
and show Your kingdom come,
in all the earth..
Teaches to live in rightousness,
teaches to live in one accord,
guided to live life everyday,
as we worship in Your court,
Let us declare Your majesty,
and let Your glory fall..
Sunday, August 12, 2007
Two more days to QAS exam...sian ah... why did i feel sian? Well, it's because i have been trying several past year exam for paper for this module, the questions set are so repetitive, it's no wonder that i will feel sian after trying for so many papers. Just like questions on Cumulative Frequency, this will sure come out in Section B short question. the question usually give a whole chunk of data, you will need to sort out the data according to their class,so you will have to decide your own class width annd class interval. then construct a frequency distribution table. Then count the frequency in each class (the most heachache part,cannot be distracted or else lose count!) then, plot frequency polygon or ogive curve,depending what the question ask you to plot...For hypothesis testing, as usual, write a pair of hypothesis statements, then calculate test statistics(z or t,depending on the sample size), look up the table and then make conclusion(accept or reject Ho)
the anova(analysis of variance) question is the most tedious one. As usual, write at least 2 pairs of hypothesis statements,depending if the question says assuming no interaction or not. next is the killer part,which is computing the sum of squares(SS). for 2 way Anova, we have to compute SS of both factors,both arranged in columns and rows,thus SS(rows) and SS(column). If you have seen the formulae for calculating the SS values for columns and rows, you will know why it's so tedious. For SS(total), it's even more killer..this involves summation of the squares of every individual data..imagine u have to square 50 datas....sianz...then construct Anova table(5 standard columns: source of variation, deg of freedom,SS,mean square(MS) and F ratio)...next, look up F table to compare F ratio and then finally make conclusion. this is similar to the hypothesis testing questions.
Anyway i have at least 90% confidence of doing well for this module because i have done well for the 2 quizzes..haha....after QAS paper, i will focus on practising for my English oral exam which will fall on 24th august..12more days to EL oral exam...Please pray for me. thanks a lot. Got to go now,shall blog more next time. Bye!
the anova(analysis of variance) question is the most tedious one. As usual, write at least 2 pairs of hypothesis statements,depending if the question says assuming no interaction or not. next is the killer part,which is computing the sum of squares(SS). for 2 way Anova, we have to compute SS of both factors,both arranged in columns and rows,thus SS(rows) and SS(column). If you have seen the formulae for calculating the SS values for columns and rows, you will know why it's so tedious. For SS(total), it's even more killer..this involves summation of the squares of every individual data..imagine u have to square 50 datas....sianz...then construct Anova table(5 standard columns: source of variation, deg of freedom,SS,mean square(MS) and F ratio)...next, look up F table to compare F ratio and then finally make conclusion. this is similar to the hypothesis testing questions.
Anyway i have at least 90% confidence of doing well for this module because i have done well for the 2 quizzes..haha....after QAS paper, i will focus on practising for my English oral exam which will fall on 24th august..12more days to EL oral exam...Please pray for me. thanks a lot. Got to go now,shall blog more next time. Bye!
Saturday, August 11, 2007
Today's certainly not my day...
i have some thoughts that has been running in my mind for so long. Now i shall "purge" it out...LOL....
Today i met Ashik to study for this coming Tuesday's QAS (Quality Assurance and Statistics) Paper which will last for fucking 3 hours....As usual, Ashik always turn up at least 30 mins late because he "have to do something at home such as packing up",whatsoever...he's always like that de, he never keep his things properly,now we are meeting up for studying, now then he start collecting and bring whatever shit he can find in his home...LOL...enough said...
Ashik is my regular study friend. Why? he's a full time slacker ma. Everytime when exam's coming soon,he will start pestering me to meet him so that i can help him as i'm well known to be a top scorer in my class. Well,true enough, i am a sole-winner of the Oustanding Perfomer Award in my class...haha...ok i will stop being cocky..
Anyway i'm ok with it,so what if he has very poor learning attitude? i will still help him as much as i can...i know everyone in my class dun like him for his last-min work attitude. Take Meng suan as example,he dun like to work with ashik as he know very well that Ashik is a free loader, whenever need to meet up to do report, his shadow is nowhere to be seen...what to do? And those worked with him before will dread working with him again as he always submit work late one....So unlucky sia...
enough said about my study friend....Let's talk about me ba...that's very important one...Recently i have read someone's blog. This person is one of those i knew in CPTC but not that well. Why did i read his blog? Well, it was when i visited his Friendster Profile then he wrote his blog Address in his profile,so i went on to read his blog out of curiosity..As i read his blog, i got to know this fellow better. Back in CPTC, we hardly talk to each other as we dun have any interest in common,except that we are brothers-in-Christ. However i do some observation about this fellow and hope we can be friends,but too bad we are in different stage(he's in stage 3A,while i'm in stage 3B),so we have even less chance to talk after school reopen.
so the only way to know him is by reading his blog regularly. As i read through his personal blog, i realise that we do have some things in common: we are actually very quiet persons. We are more introverted and some sort of "loner". We both lead a boring lifestyle as most of our blog entries are more on our thoughts and feelings,rather than what's going on in our everyday lives. i can really feel that we are on a same boat..both of us are living in our "own internal worlds"(虚幻世界).... i must admit that we do have similar kind of thinking,although he may have expressed it in proper standard English...haha...
anyway, if i had never encounter his blog i wouldn't realise so much things about myself. I am such a boring person,who would want make friends with me? When i see my ex-classmates' lives,as well as my classmates' lives are so exciting, i felt so inferior. Their lives may consists of counter strike,battle field 2,Dota game or any other lan gaming, or they may be engaged in BGR or involve in pubbing and clubbing.. while they were enjoying their youthful lifestyles, what am i doing? i am just like a slave working hard at Esso every weekend...how pitiful i am!
I remember one of my customer is an Indian. He drive his own lorry to my workplace to refill his diesel supply. While i am serving him, he took the initiatives to chat with me. Seeing me being such a young man wasting my time working as Pump attendant at such a place, he is quite surprised as why am i working so hard? then i just humor him lor. he asked why never go out with girlfriend during weekend. He even want intro me some girls for me to fuck..my internal response was "wtf!"...but again, knowing that i am determined to work hard to earn my own pocket $$,he gave me tips as encouragement...lol...i was feeling great whenever a customer give me tips...You know what? the actual reason why i am working hard at Esso as pump attendant during weekends is so that i wont spend time alone at home,feeling so lonely. Whenever weekend comes,i dun really look forward to it. Cuz nobody jio(called) me out. I am such a bore to everyone,who would want to ba long long(hanging out) with me?
For Zhenwei's case, although we may appear as best of friends or buddy, i have a strong feeling that he is being "fake" to me de. I dun believe he can tolerate hanging with a friend who is physically young but old at heart,which is me. He always say he feel fun whenever he's with me. Do u know that all the more he say this, all the more i will think he is a hypocrite? Maybe we have one thing in common, we dun have soulmates and our family is in a mess,but our attitudeand mentality towards life and our lifestyle is so different. He always seeks for fun and dun like to do things on his own,that's why he make friends easily. He loves surprises and unexpected things to happen in his life,and he always take things so easily. that's why my ex-colleague Zhan Hong tell me that Zhenwei is kee-siao(crazy man) one. another thing is that although ZW is easy-going and sociable, he has a very short-temper. U just yell at him once or fuck him in any way,he will turn nasty to you.
For me, i'm just totally different from him. I'm not as smart as him,very emotional,tends to think a lot but very calmed person,that's why i only have mild temper and high level of patience. Despite all these, at least i am true to myself as well as to all friends around me. Whenever Zhen wei praises me for being zai(clever and smart) just because i share with him something he dun't know, i would feel delighted initially but weird after that. Nobody would compliment his friend just because of a trivial matter. I was thinking that he is trying to get into my good book.he is trying to build a good frirndship betwen us so that i am offguard or lose my defence. He is so fake(虚情假意) that i cannot tahan anymore liao...take playing arcade games for example,how a person keep saying this person "this is a good one" or "you very zai" when this person keeps losing the game to him or when this person dun even know how to play the game? that's why ZW is a crazy man...
i was wrong about him. I thought we could actually develop into genuine friendship that would last but everything was just an illusion (幻想). Please take my word seriously because i have gone through a lot of thinking before i wrote this down. i am not writing in a mood of instant anger or what,i am being serious now. So i really hope that i can find a soulmate soon. again, i have a strong feeling that my friendship with ZW wont last for long...上帝上帝,您能赐给我一个真心的朋友或知音吗? 我真的很需要有个朋友给我精神上的支住,可以在我人身当中有转泪点,或突破...我的要求只是那么简单...您能帮我实现吗?........................
I alway thought that ZW would be my buddy for life,but he has let me down... seriously i must really meet him one day and make things clear to him. I must let him know that not everything in life can be taken for fun,including our friendship.
i know that i'm not any fun type of ppl u can play with. Yes i'm a serious person. since young i cant take jokes easily. I am always being bullied frequently,so as a result, i have become less self-confident and introverted person.
Life is just too unfair for me. So i'm not going to be affected by those ppl who criticised me as being a nerd.Yes i do agree that life is not only about studying hard and get good grades,nor working so hard just to survive,we are here to enjoy God's creation and explore this world,想做就去做,根本不用想这么多!!! So what if i'm a nerd to u all? As long as God doesnt think so,its ok! i'm going to study hard and work harder so that i can earn more money to lead a better and peaceful life in Australia...Yes, i believe i can do it...With God nothing is impossible!
Today i met Ashik to study for this coming Tuesday's QAS (Quality Assurance and Statistics) Paper which will last for fucking 3 hours....As usual, Ashik always turn up at least 30 mins late because he "have to do something at home such as packing up",whatsoever...he's always like that de, he never keep his things properly,now we are meeting up for studying, now then he start collecting and bring whatever shit he can find in his home...LOL...enough said...
Ashik is my regular study friend. Why? he's a full time slacker ma. Everytime when exam's coming soon,he will start pestering me to meet him so that i can help him as i'm well known to be a top scorer in my class. Well,true enough, i am a sole-winner of the Oustanding Perfomer Award in my class...haha...ok i will stop being cocky..
Anyway i'm ok with it,so what if he has very poor learning attitude? i will still help him as much as i can...i know everyone in my class dun like him for his last-min work attitude. Take Meng suan as example,he dun like to work with ashik as he know very well that Ashik is a free loader, whenever need to meet up to do report, his shadow is nowhere to be seen...what to do? And those worked with him before will dread working with him again as he always submit work late one....So unlucky sia...
enough said about my study friend....Let's talk about me ba...that's very important one...Recently i have read someone's blog. This person is one of those i knew in CPTC but not that well. Why did i read his blog? Well, it was when i visited his Friendster Profile then he wrote his blog Address in his profile,so i went on to read his blog out of curiosity..As i read his blog, i got to know this fellow better. Back in CPTC, we hardly talk to each other as we dun have any interest in common,except that we are brothers-in-Christ. However i do some observation about this fellow and hope we can be friends,but too bad we are in different stage(he's in stage 3A,while i'm in stage 3B),so we have even less chance to talk after school reopen.
so the only way to know him is by reading his blog regularly. As i read through his personal blog, i realise that we do have some things in common: we are actually very quiet persons. We are more introverted and some sort of "loner". We both lead a boring lifestyle as most of our blog entries are more on our thoughts and feelings,rather than what's going on in our everyday lives. i can really feel that we are on a same boat..both of us are living in our "own internal worlds"(虚幻世界).... i must admit that we do have similar kind of thinking,although he may have expressed it in proper standard English...haha...
anyway, if i had never encounter his blog i wouldn't realise so much things about myself. I am such a boring person,who would want make friends with me? When i see my ex-classmates' lives,as well as my classmates' lives are so exciting, i felt so inferior. Their lives may consists of counter strike,battle field 2,Dota game or any other lan gaming, or they may be engaged in BGR or involve in pubbing and clubbing.. while they were enjoying their youthful lifestyles, what am i doing? i am just like a slave working hard at Esso every weekend...how pitiful i am!
I remember one of my customer is an Indian. He drive his own lorry to my workplace to refill his diesel supply. While i am serving him, he took the initiatives to chat with me. Seeing me being such a young man wasting my time working as Pump attendant at such a place, he is quite surprised as why am i working so hard? then i just humor him lor. he asked why never go out with girlfriend during weekend. He even want intro me some girls for me to fuck..my internal response was "wtf!"...but again, knowing that i am determined to work hard to earn my own pocket $$,he gave me tips as encouragement...lol...i was feeling great whenever a customer give me tips...You know what? the actual reason why i am working hard at Esso as pump attendant during weekends is so that i wont spend time alone at home,feeling so lonely. Whenever weekend comes,i dun really look forward to it. Cuz nobody jio(called) me out. I am such a bore to everyone,who would want to ba long long(hanging out) with me?
For Zhenwei's case, although we may appear as best of friends or buddy, i have a strong feeling that he is being "fake" to me de. I dun believe he can tolerate hanging with a friend who is physically young but old at heart,which is me. He always say he feel fun whenever he's with me. Do u know that all the more he say this, all the more i will think he is a hypocrite? Maybe we have one thing in common, we dun have soulmates and our family is in a mess,but our attitudeand mentality towards life and our lifestyle is so different. He always seeks for fun and dun like to do things on his own,that's why he make friends easily. He loves surprises and unexpected things to happen in his life,and he always take things so easily. that's why my ex-colleague Zhan Hong tell me that Zhenwei is kee-siao(crazy man) one. another thing is that although ZW is easy-going and sociable, he has a very short-temper. U just yell at him once or fuck him in any way,he will turn nasty to you.
For me, i'm just totally different from him. I'm not as smart as him,very emotional,tends to think a lot but very calmed person,that's why i only have mild temper and high level of patience. Despite all these, at least i am true to myself as well as to all friends around me. Whenever Zhen wei praises me for being zai(clever and smart) just because i share with him something he dun't know, i would feel delighted initially but weird after that. Nobody would compliment his friend just because of a trivial matter. I was thinking that he is trying to get into my good book.he is trying to build a good frirndship betwen us so that i am offguard or lose my defence. He is so fake(虚情假意) that i cannot tahan anymore liao...take playing arcade games for example,how a person keep saying this person "this is a good one" or "you very zai" when this person keeps losing the game to him or when this person dun even know how to play the game? that's why ZW is a crazy man...
i was wrong about him. I thought we could actually develop into genuine friendship that would last but everything was just an illusion (幻想). Please take my word seriously because i have gone through a lot of thinking before i wrote this down. i am not writing in a mood of instant anger or what,i am being serious now. So i really hope that i can find a soulmate soon. again, i have a strong feeling that my friendship with ZW wont last for long...上帝上帝,您能赐给我一个真心的朋友或知音吗? 我真的很需要有个朋友给我精神上的支住,可以在我人身当中有转泪点,或突破...我的要求只是那么简单...您能帮我实现吗?........................
I alway thought that ZW would be my buddy for life,but he has let me down... seriously i must really meet him one day and make things clear to him. I must let him know that not everything in life can be taken for fun,including our friendship.
i know that i'm not any fun type of ppl u can play with. Yes i'm a serious person. since young i cant take jokes easily. I am always being bullied frequently,so as a result, i have become less self-confident and introverted person.
Life is just too unfair for me. So i'm not going to be affected by those ppl who criticised me as being a nerd.Yes i do agree that life is not only about studying hard and get good grades,nor working so hard just to survive,we are here to enjoy God's creation and explore this world,想做就去做,根本不用想这么多!!! So what if i'm a nerd to u all? As long as God doesnt think so,its ok! i'm going to study hard and work harder so that i can earn more money to lead a better and peaceful life in Australia...Yes, i believe i can do it...With God nothing is impossible!
Thursday, August 09, 2007
hi,everyone.....so long nvr blog liao....well nothing much happened in my life..as usual,mon to thur go school,fri do fyp at ntu and weekend go work at Esso Holland...sianz ah...anyway,i wish Singapore Happy 42nd birthday....me nothing much to blog le...i got to go study for my QAS exam next week liao...Hope God Bless me...haizz.....