Time really flies. Tomorrow will be my mounting day. the 7 days of standby seems so short,yet 7days of mounting duty in camp seems so long...my vocation in tuas naval base as a sea soldier really sucks......



So far i have joined TDS Platoon 1 for almost 4months already. Initially i dun like to join platoon 1 at all because of this selfish fucker who thinks he's always right. Well, my lucks dun seem to be good thats y i kena this platoon even though i really prayed so hard to get into platoon 2 (which is popular among everyone in ssc19)



I have something in mind. I have similar case like Kevin Alexander Chew (from SSC 20) and Kelvin Teo (from ssc12). We are all outcasted,especially by our own batchmates. Ever since the OJT (on-job training) period in TDS, most of my batch mates never talked to me in respectful manner. They are either being sarcastic to me or like to find fault with me, or even to the extent of badmouthing me behind my back to the ssc 20 or the seniors.



they can dislike me for all i care, but i never expect them to do such thing to destroy my name. How can they influence other ppl to dislike me as well? this is certainly not fair to me,especially when platoon 1 is well known for the culture of 老教切新教....so surely platoon 1 seniors, especially that fucker sergeant who's living in serangoon, will definite qie me....



Thus my life in platoon 1 is definitely not a smooth sailing and easy in the first place. Whether i do duty at West and East towers, DOC or guardhouse, there will bound to be someone who wun like me at all. this harsh fact has made me so emo ( slang for being demoralised and depressed) already. there are times when i really talk to myself by using my hp to act as a smoke object but Sergeant Danial, my GC, caught me doing that but i denied it.



Its only then when i do duty with that fucker Kelvin Teo (ORDed already), Jafar the CQ and Liang Hong (ssc 18 sgt), i understand why so many ppl in platoon 1 dun talk to me or even see me as invisible. this fact has further made me so emo.



As i have done several duty cycles, ssc 20 have also joined TDS. When i first met ssc20, i felt that time actually pass very fast as one month we only have to complete 2 duty cycles.when ssc 20 joined the platoon, i will become a senior. i do felt good about it. so when ssc20 were doing their ojt, i will take this good chance to build up friendship with them, and at the same time,while imparting ops knowledge to them as a senior, i can also improve on my daily land and sea security ops. I knew that my ops is really damn cui (hokkien word for lousy and fucked up), but i am willing to go thru my ojt notebook again and refresh my memory and also learn the hard way by kena fucked by that fucked up guard commander constantly during normal ops.



ok la, i shall stop here as tomorrow is the start of duty. so gotta sleep early tonight.....