hi,i'm finally back!

hello,everyone! I'm finally back after a long period of suffering+ me busy working these few days...so if u dun mind,let me share with u what happened to me on these past few weeks...

--17th feb--
haizz..today was certainly not my day! today i was having AE&E final quiz...although i have studied whatever i need to know,but yet i make a big mistake,that is communication error.. i din noe that today there is still AE&E class today! oh gosh,how am i going to take the quiz w/o attending the class? to think i relax for the whole day @ SP library and just wait for the quiz @5.15pm...

Actually Mr kong have already told the class that there will be last lecture today as per normal,but since i tot this week is study week so i tot no class lor..in actual fact i got one or two questions that i need to ask Mr kong or else if it comes out in the test i won't be able to do,but i din ask him and it acually come out in the test in the long question(worth 10 marks!) ...i was so shocked! How to do that question on zener diode topics,man?!! It was until the end of the quiz then i confirm the answer with siying and jasmin who are sitting in front of me during the test and then i realised that their answer was totally different from mine,so later when i cfm with hwee yun and eleanor,then they told me that there's a class today!!

Oh shit,how careless i am! I had no idea why these few days i am especially very absent-minded and tends to be very careless..Even in listening to someone's announcements...i feel that sometimes when somebody is toking my mind is in somewhere else(or rather say i am subconsciously 'day-dreaming'),when he had done his toking, i actually ask him to repeat himself as i din catch wat he or she says...maybe i'm too stressed out..oh God,pls help me!

--20th Feb --
today is the my final Bible study session with Jehovah witnesses...But i only meet up with uncle Roy at jurong East Delifrance@ JEC. Cuz i raelly have no courage to face Dinesh again..he is the best conductor i have seen b4,indeed...Actually i have planned to end the bible study with them some time ago but it was just that i can't find any excuses to leave them or avoid them,since my exam and sch holiday coming soon,so i intend to make today the last day of bible study as i can make the excuses of not meeting them,using the preparation of exam and me "going to m'sia during holidays" as the excuses..well,i have not told them abt me gonna terminate the study with them,firstly is becoz i dun want to hurt their feelings for we had progressed our Bible Study for a few months already and they had put all their effort grooming me to become like them,and secondly i am quite afraid to face persecution from them..during these period i felt very xin qu cuz every time i meet them for a study i have to act as if i am still interested to learn the Word of God from them but in actual fact ever since i read the website abt the account of that particular ex-JW (http://www.cftf.com/miller/index.html) , (http://www.irr.org/English-JW/jwfacten.html) ,(http://www.geocities.com/Heartland/2919/test.html) i suddenly change my mindset abt them..i find it very meaningless to continue to have BS with them,cuz i have change my direction in order to seek the truth..anyway today is the last bs with Roy..quite enjoyable spending time with him if not for the BS...i finds him quite a nice person..too pity that he is too obsessed with JW society,if our friendship is further developed or if had i known him earlier,maybe i can help to deliver him away from the evils of JW,but its too late...

Aniwae,i have finally gain my freedom! its really hallelujah! from now onwards i dun need to learn anything from this cult anymore..i can be myself again,no more pressure,no more pain,isn't it good?=)

-22th Feb--
oh no,today is CPPA exam!!! today is my first paper,so i am quite anxious as well as serious abt this exam..During this exam period i think i have suffer some sort of mild depression..for no reason i lose my temper easily...when something keep pressing me i will go crazy by shouting out loud in the public w/o hesitation,maybe i have gave myself too much pressure...i should relax,..luckily today's paper wasn't as worsr as i think..it was a pretty easy paper,but i am still bothered by the mistake that i made,it was until last minute then i realised that question i do wrongly..haizz

--24th Feb--
today is the AP chem paper...i actually overestimated myself...i tot this module is not so much of memory work and is much of calculation...i am wrong! i am quite bothered that i din manage to check my paper properly..i din even realised that i have done the long question on chemical equlibrium wrongly,until the next day!!! oh my god,how muddleheaded i can be! i have calculated the equilibrium constant(Keq) wrongly as i have forgotten to square the concentration of the product..as we know that H2+I2<--->2HI, and Keq=[HI]^2/[H2][I2]and yet becoz of this stupid mistake i have got almost the whole question wrong..and becoz of this, for the last part of this long question where they ask me to calculate the concentration of the species present at new equilibrium when 0.5 mol HI is added,i ended up using quadratic equation(which is very tedious) as my working does not enable me to square root both sides of the equation as i forget to put the square in front of [HI]...had i put the square in front of [HI],i could have simplify the whole thing and i need not go through the tedious method liaw..i am just too careless and stupid lor...dun think i can score high in this paper liaw..haizz..aniwae..its over liaw and let's hope that history will not repeat in my next few semesters...

--28th Feb--
finally today was my last paper(materials in practice)..Yahoo! this sem in total i am taking 3 examinable modules(AP chem,CPPA and MIP) and AE&E from AY2004/2005 onwards had ceased to become examinable module and is fully ICA(in-course assessment)...today's paper quite ok la..just memory work..just that got one question that i din prepared for as i din noe that that particular section will be tested in the exam..so i leave that question blank lor..what to do?So as sson as i finished the paper i leave the exam room early,together with ming rang as she feels embarrassed to leave the room so early...

oh ya..that day around 5pm plus, since my exam just ended, so i called Bobby to apply for a job but he is too busy to tok to me so i called his office no. the girl who answered the call ask me to go to boon lay mrt long taxi stand at 7.45pm for a job interview as usual..cuz i have worked under Christine and bobby b4 and as usual i am still applying for a nite shift job at JHT(Jurong Hi-tech) although it's very tiring working at nite 12 hours..What happened was that when Bobby reached that long taxi stand,he ask me to go home first as he says the nite shift doesn't need any male workers cuz my friend says someone peep at one of the nite shift leader(i think is xingyee,if i'm not wrong) in the toilet..he was peeping from the window just behind the cubicle..it was very dark there so nobody noes who peep at her lor,and so JHT wants to prevent such thing from happening again..i was left with no choice so i had to choose working morning shift,though the pay($61/day) was lower than the nite shift pay(which was $67/day)..well,i just accept it lor and so i come for the interview next morning and start work on the spot...